Glory

When I think about the truth sometimes
While sitting up alone late
Listening for my heart at night
Just to hear it beat
And it's got a hole
There's something wrong there's something more
'Cause I gave up believing it
I was a little lone bottle babe
Howling in an empty room
Just sitting inside for days
We got to perform it
We got to put our best faces on
Some people come and go
And then they disappear for days
So you spend your whole life watching love
Like staring through a haze
For glory is not my friend
I never win when I try to win
Oh I just lose it all again
And the story that I tell myself
It's not your fault it's not your self
You were just never born to win
But I'm sick of lonely mornings
I'm sick of thinking about it
I keep thinking it might change someday
But goddamn I truly doubt it
But it hurts too much to think
And it hurts too much to know it
And it hurts too much to hold too tight
Then it hurts when you let go of it
It just fucking hurts all the time
That's why we never notice it
So forget about this paper
Forget about the baby
Forget about the times I said
If I lost you I'd go crazy
Forget these gilded ceilings
Forget my wedding vows
Forget you were the one thing
I could never live without
'Cause glory is not my friend
I never win when I try to win
So I lose it all again
And the story that I tell myself
You're better off all by your lone
Then I hate being alone
But you cried when you walked away
And you said I looked sedated
And just because I hold it in so much
It doesn't mean I don't fucking hate it
And I just want you to come home
Oh babe please come home
And you say you never left m e
But those words you said about me
You never had to hide from
All those endless ghouls around me
'Cause I love you more than that
I love you more than that
I've never loved anything so much
Can't you feel it when we touch
But I've never dared to lose someone
And I can't be cool about it
I lay awake and think of you
And it hurts so much to doubt it
'Cause glory is not my friend
I always lose when I try to win
Now I've lost it all again
And the story does it really have to end
Maybe we can start again
I truly hope we do my friend
I truly hope we do my friend
I just can't lose you again