F.U.E.L.

I wish that I had a pretty smile
I could impress all your friends
and make them want to come to my birthday
I wish that I had a pretty laugh
I could laugh at all your jokes
in front of them
cuz I know how much it means to you
to have their approval
I wish that I had a pretty face
I could be a model citizen
and watch the accolades fall around me
I wish that I had a magic spell
that would make you think everything I did
was perfect
cuz you know how much it means to me
to have your approval
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my heart
and it gets louder every minute you're away
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my head
and it gets louder every second, every day
I wish that I had a fancy job
where people brought me lattes
with an extra shot of power
I wish that I went to more parties
instead of writing songs
at absurd hours
and I'm waiting for my time to come
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my heart
and it gets louder every minute, every day
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my head
and it gets louder every minute that I stay
so I'm counting down the hours
while my imagination runs for the hills
and my fantasies are so familiar
they feel real
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my heart
and it gets louder every second, every day
tick tock tick tock
goes the clock inside my head
and it gets louder every minute that I stay
and will it ever go away?
Will it ever be okay?
And if I start again can I make it feel the same?
Will I ever be okay?
And if I start again can I do it my own way?