Acceptance // Resistance

I put my patience in the past
pray to god this feeling lasts
turn excitement into art
light a fire just to start
something new and something warm
keep me cozy in the storm
that rages around my heart
sick of sad songs and the dark
I'm sick of missing my ex-boyfriend
feeling guilty over nothing
getting drunk and getting sober
can this war for one be over?
guess I have some expectations
guess I kinda can't accept the way I am
and I don't know where I'm going
where I've been is ancient news
it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude
I like retro breakfast joints
just to get across my point
my eyes flicker like a screen
I do not say what I mean
I don't like to sit cross legged
Don't like new york, don't like vegas
attract people who can't love me
I'm afraid of intimacy
guess I have some expectations
guess I kinda can't accept the way I am
and I don't know where I'm going
where I've been is ancient news
it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude
I dream of space and little martians
dream of getting lost in target
then I wake up and I forget everything
Sick of sad songs, sick of sadness
homesick with a certain gladness
missing mom annoyed at dad yes
this is life below the madness
guess I have some expectations
guess I kinda can't accept the way I am
and I don't know where I'm going
where I've been is ancient news
it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude
I'm sick of missing my ex-boyfriend
feeling guilty over nothing
getting drunk and getting sober
can this war for one be over?
guess I have some expectations
guess I kinda can't accept the way I am