Nobody's Sane, We Just Pretend

It's been 8 years since I let it go
10 more since I've been in control
and I've got to admit
it's driving me batshit
If I'm whole why don't I feel whole?
And if I'm runnin' why are my legs cold?
And if you really love me
why am I acting crazy?
Nobody's sane we just pretend
I know I picked a fight again
I'm insecure and neurotic
I thought you found me exotic
You let me sweat while I wait for
a call or text or an e-mail
I run around inside my head
what is there to do instead?
And it's times like these I get some perspective
cuz it's times like these I get real reflective
If I'm whole why don't I feel whole?
And if I'm runnin' why are my feet cold?
And if you really love me
why am I acting crazy?
Nobody's sane we just pretend
I thought you'd love me till the end
I know I'm unrealistic
immature and a little sadistic
I'm trying just as hard as you babe
I crave the same things that you crave
I know I fucked it up again
what will it take for me to win?
And it's times like these I get real down
and it's times like these I wish I had my mom around
If I'm whole why don't I feel whole?
And if I'm runnin' why are my legs cold?
And if you really love me
why am I acting crazy?
Nobody's sane we just pretend
I thought you'd love me till the end
I know I'm unrealistic
immature and a little sadistic
I'm trying just as hard as you babe
I crave the same things that you crave
I know I picked a fight again
what will it take for this to end?
And it's times like these I get some perspective
cuz it's times like these I get real reflective
If I'm whole why don't I feel whole?
And if I'm runnin' why are my feet cold?
And if you really love me
why am I acting crazy?