Ruination

shut the door let's go; let's punch the wall in pain
I got another fuckin' way to win this
hit the ground unless you wanna cut yourself up
I got another way to numb the pain out
from this view I cannot see your face
I cannot live without you now
and now the time will disappear
as will the dust that I'll become
drop another pill in your throat
in your brainstem
what is this shit that I'm putting in myself
I look at the label and I try to comprehend it
why does this shit make wanna suffocate
bang your head into a fucking blood red wall
I need another fucking chance to explain this
eat some lead and paint the goddamn room in hate
I need another way to numb the pain out
from this view I cannot see your face
I cannot live without you now
and now the time will disappear
as will the dust that I'll become
as will the dust that I'll become
as will the dust that I'll become
break my face and sew it back at midnight
I got a bottle got a milligram got a hit
choose this way and close the door on this life
I need another fucking chance to explain this.
I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead I'm sorry I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead
from this view I cannot see your face
I cannot live without you now
and now the time will disappear
as will the dust that I'll become
as will the dust that I'll become
as will the dust that I'll become
I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead I'm sorry I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead
I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead I'm sorry I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead