The Knot

Save me from the safety
of this house I built, I know it's not my home
Broken is the floor beneath my feet
Watch me slip away, I'm falling through the cracks
Take me, yes, I'm faking
There's no substance to these manic apologies, no
Hold in all the pain I have amassed within
I confess I've lost the will for confessions
And I watched myself fall away
And time has not been so kind to me
Let go of all of my hopes and dreams
Now the knot is all that is left for me
Save me, there's no safety
From the place within my head
It's taking all I know
Choking on the vices meant to medicate
Washing down the shame of contemplation
Taking invitations
From the whispered bad intentions in my head
Hoping for a savior from the current state
Searching through the past
to find a way back home
And I watched myself fall away
And time has not been so kind to me
Let go of all of my hopes and dreams
Now the knot is swaying in front of me
Protect your peace at all costs
Or you've already lost
You have to carry on
The past is dead and gone
The walls are closing in
Can we just start again?
I'm sick and tired of this solipsistic apathy
Who put these words inside my mouth?
If nothing really is the answer, what's the answer then?
I thought I had it figured out
I meditate on revelations that I never had
My morals are so cluttered that it's hard to tell the good from bad
Good thing the knot I tied is far away
I guess I'll pass out on the couch