covered in the sediment

I'm not trying to get along with everyone
Just you, would be nice
I fake my way through every conversation
But I don't retain a thing
I pretend with my eyes
And I thought I did an okay job
But I'm bad at acting
You didn't feel the need to call me out
And that should count for something
You look down at your feet and converse with the dirt
? your stupid ?
You should've took me by the hand
With your second hand, buried me in the fucking ground
I look out, covered in the sediment
If you're on top, you win the argument
Or at least you get a head start, start
I got locked out of the house, but it was funny
So I stayed outside
I heard you laugh over the phone without the context
You like men outside, and you don't try to help
But you give me a list of things to do while I'm out there
And you hang up halfway through, and I pretend you don't
When I come to accept the silence, I let it out
At a frequency that is impossibly loud
In a panic room underneath the ground
Where no sound gets out
Cause it's way below the sediment
And nothing else is breaking in
So when's the joke gonna start?
Start, start
It's not funny, not funny
Not funny, not funny
It's not funny, not funny
It's not funny, not funny
It's not funny, not funny
It's not funny, not funny
Not funny, not funny, no
I'm not trying to get along with everyone
Just you, would be nice