ANLMA - Ambivalent (A) Awake

All a lifetime's worth of chasing
A better brighter day
Did you ever think that you'd find silver in the gray?
Or perhaps you were escaping
The bitter plight of faith
Just another dreamer simply trying to awake
So you say
That I am bound to watch this all go up in flames
(Flames burning all around me)
And you will see as the smoke dissipates
(The taste of ash and ember bears no sustenance)
Only I remain
In the silence
Silence...
I've ignored my steady decline into dependency
As the life around me degrades
Isolation serves as the antidote
To the bone-aching stresses of life
Relapsing
Collapsing
Codependent
I surrender to my ignorance
In attempt to soothe my mental dissonance
All a lifetime's worth of chasing
A better brighter day
Did you ever think that you'd find silver in the gray?
Or perhaps you were escaping
The bitter plight of faith
Just another dreamer simply trying to awake
I'm kinda sick of feelin wasted
I'm kinda sick of feeling ignorant
I want a life that won't amount to nothing
When did we all get so complacent
Putting a front on like we're ignorant
So that we wont have to amount to something
Its like we all need a replacement
Some sort of sign where we cant ignore it
Our addiction to playing the victim
For too long
Relapsing
Collapsing
Codependent
I surrender to my ignorance
In attempt to soothe my mental dissonance