Older Guys

Look at us, we made it out alive
Those were the years that I learnt to survive
Maybe youth ain't the time of our lives
They just romanticize it
Met you at a party on Halloween
You were studying at university
And all your friends would laugh and joke about me
But I didn't mind being a punchline at sixteen
I liked that you were older
But at the time I didn't understand
It's 'cause you held the power
And I thought love was meant to feel like that
All the things I gave you
Now I wish I could take them all back
'Cause I wasn't a woman yet, but you were a man
I was just a girl in love with a man
And it felt like a twisted game you'd play
Of who could take my innocence away
But it wasn't yours, no never yours to claim
I thought that to love was to give yourself away
It sent me into orbit
Knowing that you wanted me like that
Didn't see a problem
It's only now I'm older, looking back
Made me feel so special
Now the only thing I feel is mad
'Cause I wasn't a woman yet, but you were a man
I wasn't a woman yet, but now I am
You'd pick me up in your car
We'd go speeding down our lanes
I'd meet you in town with my fake ID
Claiming I was twenty-three to get into bars
I never felt so cool
And now I know you probably knew that I,
Would do anything to impress you
And now I wonder, is that how they get you?
They say that your youth is
Meant to be the time of your life
But I feel fucking stupid
That I was crying over older guys
Bet they don't think about it
Wish I knew what I know now back then
'Cause I wasn't a woman yet, but you were a man
I was just a girl in love with a man