My Health

I’ve dug a hell of a grave
one to fit all this disease
I see the tears in my mother’s eyes
I’d given up on myself, and put my faith into you
in hopes that very decision would bring me somewhere new
I’ve been killing myself for your entertainment
I’ve been killing myself to bring me back to life
I’ve been running in the dark covering my eyes
killing myself for your entertainment
I’m afraid
I’m afraid of what I’ve become
Sinking into a lucid coma
I’ve dug a hell of a grave
one to fit all this disease
I see the tears in my mother’s eyes
I’d given up on myself, and put my faith into you
in hopes that very decision would bring me somewhere new
I look into my future
What I’ve become just might kill me
I’m scared it might kill me
I’m afraid
I’m afraid of what I’ve become
I’m losing my sense of self
I’m losing my sense of self
Killing myself for all of you to see
killing myself for your entertainment
killing myself for your entertainment
nothing ever mattered if I died because I’ve
created a reality where everyone’s a part of me
but only if you believe, well otherwise, you’ll have to see…
I’m afraid
I’m afraid of what I’ve become
Sinking into a lucid coma
I don’t care
I don’t care if it kills me
This is something so much bigger than just me
I’ve created a world where everyone’s a part of me
Control was never lost, I spent too much time searching for my home
When there’s a perfectly good one in front of me that I’ve created