If I Hadn't Met You

If I hadn't met you
Would I be all alone?
Hiding in my bedroom
Living life through a phone
I'm scared of everything and everyone
Everything I haven't done yet
My head is in its own
I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head
And out of everybody else that I met, it's you
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go, go
If I hadn't met you
Would I lie through my teeth?
Hiding all the rest
You got the best part of me
I'm scared of letting anybody get
Close enough to have regrets
I get if you wanna go
I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head
And out of everybody else that I met, it's you
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go, go
I bet you're so tired of me
All the demons in my head are lying to me
There's a war between myself and who I'm tryna' be
Now I don't know how to function in society
One, two, three medications
Just so I can have a fuckin' normal conversation
I sleep better when I've been sedated
I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go, go