HOPE FOR THE BEST

i can't stand the thought of being like this forever
i don't want to be stuck in this endless cascading hell frame of scathing pain
i don't know how long it'll take before i get to wherever
all i know is i'm not getting there fast enough
i can't keep it up anymore. i can't keep waking up on the floor
i don't know how long i've got left. i can't keep hoping for the best
i can't keep it up anymore. i can't keep waking up on the floor
i don't know how long i've got left. i can only hope for the best
i hate this stupid bullshit town that just sits here and drowns in piss
maybe if i had been a better person i wouldn't be here
i let myself just waste away for almost 18 fucking years
morphing into a freaky monster but i know i deserve it
i'm like roadkill on the m35
just laying on the fucking tarmac
barely alive just for extra torment
but what else is there left to do
it's always endless torture, we didnt get to choose
but i don't know if i'd leave, if i could
because it's safer in here than with those creepy dudes
with the microphone, saying fucked up shit
bout how they wish they could help, but they can't do shit
but shit only gets worse cuz it makes them hard
and they just hurt everyone that they get near
and we're all hurt in here but we can talk about it
but sometimes i dont wanna uhh talk about it
cause it just makes me sad but it helps sometimes
so that's cool i guess
i can't keep it up anymore. i can't keep waking up on the floor
i don't know how long i've got left. i can't keep hoping for the best
i can't keep it up anymore. i can't keep waking up on the floor
i don't know how long i've got left. i can't keep hoping for the best
i can't keep it up anymore. i can't keep waking up on the floor
i don't know how long i've got left. i can only hope for the best
i can't keep giving up on my hopes, i can't keep burning down my home
i think im gonna die alone and honestly i know i kinda deserve it
i think i might just kill myself, i think my body is falling apart
i think i already killed myself, i think im haunting my own corpse
i know that i deserve better, one day i'll be where i can get better
(i know that i deserve better, one day i'll be where i can