this is what being cheated on feels like

I'm falling on the sheets in the morning
Wondering where she's been all evening
When she told me that she'd leave me for Ethan
In my mind, I had the guts to believe that
Everything would be right as you said
I had no reason to pick up on all the loose ends
Always thought the best of you believing
But now this little boy woke up to false beliefs, and
It's been two hours from the time we set our clocks to meet up
If you had only gave me time, I swear I could've told ya
And now I'm sitting in between my mates but feeling older
They told me Ethan wouldn't do a thing so I keep my head up
But now it's been too long, it's twice the time, oh I had enough
Of being strong and weak at the same time, oh we're sitting ducks
Waiting for the confidence I had in you to bite me in the bum
But you told me Ethan wouldn't do a thing so I keep my head up
Then I saw you in the car
Looked over there in the harbour's side
I couldn't see but I recognized
I should've known you were a house of lies
The weight is pulled off of your seat
And at the end it just adds up to his
Two shades high off a gateway drug
You and Ethan did a thing, do I still keep my head up?
The worst part of it all was that you weren't
Intoxicated, no excuses you could pull in
To save yourself and now you come back to me crawling
I don't know how you think that I could ever forgive
Someone who won't admit when she's fallen
Why don't you just run back to funny little Ethan?
Stop asking me to trust you while I'm still coughing
All of the water from this pool you made me drown in
It's been two hours from the time we set our clocks to meet up
If you had only gave me time, I swear I could've told ya
And now I'm sitting in between my mates but feeling older
They told me Ethan wouldn't do a thing so I keep my head up
But now it's been too long, it's twice the time, oh I had enough
Of being strong and weak at the same time, oh we're sitting ducks
Waiting for the confidence I had in you to bite me in the bum
But you told me Ethan wouldn't do a thing so I keep my head up
Then I saw you in the car
Looked over there in the harbour's side
I couldn't see but I recognized
I should've known you were a house of lies
The weight is pulled off of your seat
And at the end it just adds up to his
Two shades high off a gateway drug
You and Ethan did a thing, do I still keep my head up?
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Then I saw you in the car
Looked over there in the harbour's side
I couldn't see but I recognized
I should've known you were a house of lies
The weight is pulled off of your seat
But at the end it just adds up to his
Two shades high off a gateway drug
You and Ethan did a thing, was I just not enough?