1
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
Give me a day or two
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do
Do you read my interviews?
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passin' through
Was I even on your way?
I knew when I asked you to
Be cool about what I was tellin' you
You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do
And I'd end up more afraid
Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware
That you made me miserable
So if you really wanna know
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
You call me again, drunk in your Benz
Drivin' home under the influence
You scared me to death but I'm wastin' my breath
'Cause you only listen to your fuckin' friends
I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
And I don't talk shit about you on the internet
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything
And all that you did was make me fuckin' sad
So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad
I could talk about every time that you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did
Never paid any mind to my mother or friends
So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid
You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just fuckin' leave me alone
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
Give me a day or two
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do
Do you read my interviews?
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passin' through
Was I even on your way?
I knew when I asked you to
Be cool about what I was tellin' you
You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do
And I'd end up more afraid
Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware
That you made me miserable
So if you really wanna know
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
You call me again, drunk in your Benz
Drivin' home under the influence
You scared me to death but I'm wastin' my breath
'Cause you only listen to your fuckin' friends
I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
And I don't talk shit about you on the internet
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything
And all that you did was make me fuckin' sad
So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad
I could talk about every time that you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did
Never paid any mind to my mother or friends
So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid
You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just fuckin' leave me alone
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
Happier Than Ever Lyrics as written by Finneas Baird O'connell Billie Eilish O'connell
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
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This song is about a toxic person in your environment, not necessarily a partner, it could be anyone (a friend, classmate, parents, siblings etc.) who has a big influence in you and your life that’s why she says “I wish it wasn’t true.” She dosen’t want to hate this person but at the same time she thinks of all of the things they did to her. She first has had known a completely different side of them. But quickly she ( the narrator) says that they are normalising the things and she is noticing that they are toxic as hell. She notices that when she’s away from them, she suddenly dosen’t have this pressure and this anxiety anymore. She feels comfortable. But whenever she returns to them she suddenly starts feeling uncomfortable and anxious again. Like every thing that she does is judged by them. It’s hard for her to be independent from them but she knows that it’s necessary because they are damaging her mental health. In the second part she finally admits that her mental health is completely crumbled. She can’t do anything normally without overthinking of what she is doing/ how she is doing it, it’s hard for her to begin a normal conversation due to the person/ people that broke her. Although they did all of this, she dosen’t say a single bad word about them even though she exactly knows that they did this to her. Amazing song from Billie Eilish. I know a lot if people don’t like her music now anymore but for me it’s incredible how relatable she wrote these lyrics!