Happier Than Ever Lyrics
I’m happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn’t true
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passing through
Was I even on your way?
Be cool about what I was telling you
You’d do the opposite of what you said you’d do
And I’d end up more afraid
You clearly weren’t aware that you
Made me miserable
So if you really wanna know
I’m happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn’t true
Driving home under the influence
You scared me to death but I’m wasting my breath
‘Cause you only listen to your fucking friends
I don’t relate to you, no
‘Cause I’d never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
Never told anyone anything bad
‘Cause that shit’s embarrassing, you were my everything
And all that you did was make me fucking sad
And don’t try to make me feel bad
But I’d have an empty line ’cause you never did
Never paid any mind to my mother or friends so I
Shut ’em all out for you ’cause I was a kid
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just fucking leave me alone
This song is about a toxic person in your environment, not necessarily a partner, it could be anyone (a friend, classmate, parents, siblings etc.) who has a big influence in you and your life that’s why she says “I wish it wasn’t true.” She dosen’t want to hate this person but at the same time she thinks of all of the things they did to her. She first has had known a completely different side of them. But quickly she ( the narrator) says that they are normalising the things and she is noticing that they are toxic as hell. She notices that when she’s away from them, she suddenly dosen’t have this pressure and this anxiety anymore. She feels comfortable. But whenever she returns to them she suddenly starts feeling uncomfortable and anxious again. Like every thing that she does is judged by them. It’s hard for her to be independent from them but she knows that it’s necessary because they are damaging her mental health. In the second part she finally admits that her mental health is completely crumbled. She can’t do anything normally without overthinking of what she is doing/ how she is doing it, it’s hard for her to begin a normal conversation due to the person/ people that broke her. Although they did all of this, she dosen’t say a single bad word about them even though she exactly knows that they did this to her. Amazing song from Billie Eilish. I know a lot if people don’t like her music now anymore but for me it’s incredible how relatable she wrote these lyrics!
Listen to it thinking about an absent/bad/neglectful father. My dad is and always has been great, so it's not confirmation bias or something.
That line about never showing up on time and "I was a kid" made me think of it this way.
Either way, it's a powerful breakup song no matter what the relationship the author is breaking away from.
This song is about a toxic person in your environment, not necessarily a partner, it could be anyone (a friend, classmate, parents, siblings etc.) who has a big influence in you and your life that’s why she says “I wish it wasn’t true.” She dosen’t want to hate this person but at the same time she thinks of all of the things they did to her. She first has had known a completely different side of them. But quickly she ( the narrator) says that they are normalising the things and she is noticing that they are toxic as hell. She notices that when she’s away from them, she suddenly dosen’t have this pressure and this anxiety anymore. She feels comfortable. But whenever she returns to them she suddenly starts feeling uncomfortable and anxious again. Like every thing that she does is judged by them. It’s hard for her to be independent from them but she knows that it’s necessary because they are damaging her mental health. In the second part she finally admits that her mental health is completely crumbled. She can’t do anything normally without overthinking of what she is doing/ how she is doing it, it’s hard for her to begin a normal conversation due to the person/ people that broke her. Although they did all of this, she dosen’t say a single bad word about them even though she exactly knows that they did this to her. Amazing song from Billie Eilish. I know a lot if people don’t like her music now anymore but for me it’s incredible how relatable she wrote these lyrics!
Isn’t anyone curious about which ex friend of Billie’s inspired this song?