COLLAPSE

I lay wide awake at night
knowing I wont sleep.
Days are passing by.
Anxiousness will bury me.
I'm so lost in this blizzard in my head.
I'm envious of the dead.
A melody without a rhythm.
No grace to uphold.
Surrounded by panic.
There's nothing else to enfold.
You're still haunting me.
I feel I'll never really leave.
There's nothing left of me.
You drained my life.
I'm incomplete.
We take our time
but that's all we have.
I'd rather die than let this moment last.
I've been searching for answers
to find some sort of absolution.
But nothing matters in a life of disillusion.
I can't begin to put myself back together.
Do I trace the past that lead me here?
Is this a dream?
Tell me something.
Tell me anything.
Am I lowering my grave?
Is there more to life than this?
Just say anything.
I'm only human.
There''s only so much I can take.
Give me a reason to cut my losses.
I'm still losing faith.
We take our time
but that's all we have.
I'd rather die than let this moment last.
I've been searching for answers
to find some sort of absolution.
But nothing matters in a life of disillusion.