Falling Up

Things were happening
I felt the weight of the expectation on my chest
My mind was traveling
But I swear that I don't remember where it went
They said things were growing
So why do I feel like nothing at all is left?
So I'll keep on moving
'Cause if I'm standing still, then I'll feel the emptiness
'Cause I get so lonely
And you get so low
And I look so stupid
When I lose control
I'm alone in my bedroom
And the walls are caving in
And I thought I'd be happy
But I'm barely breathing
Oh I'm barely breathing
'cause I'm feeling down
But I'm falling up
And I'm breaking out
But not out of luck
As I breathe the air into my lungs
I wanted everything but nothing's ever good enough
I gotta change me
And if I wake up now, there's a chance to start again
But if I wait,
Could I get back to the place where it all began?
Before, I got so lonely
And you got so low
And I looked so stupid
When you came to my show
I'm alone in the spotlight
And the walls are caving in
And I thought I'd be happy
But I'm barely breathing
Oh I'm barely breathing
'cause I'm feeling down
But I'm falling up
And I'm breaking out
But not out of luck
As I breathe the air into my lungs
I wanted everything but nothing's ever good enough
And I hate the man that I've turned into
And I've come so far, what did I lose?
And I swear to God, I'll make it through
I'll make it through
'Cause I get so lonely
And you get so low
And I looked so stupid
When you came to my show
I'm alone in the spotlight
And the walls are caving in
And I thought I'd be happy
But I'm barely breathing
Oh I'm barely breathing
'Cause I'm feeling down
But I'm falling up
And I'm breaking out
But not out of luck
As I breathe the air into my lungs
I wanted everything but nothing's ever good enough