Mess

I'm a mess, I've been a mess for months, I know it's real
I've been doing anything I can to numb how it feels
And I know that putting all this liquor in my body
Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me
No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me
Still, I wait for you and I know
It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared of how quiet it will be without you
I hate taking off my own clothes
Getting in my own bed, spinning thoughts about you
It's late and I'm waiting behind
For the drugs to kick in and erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
Smoking new cigarettes thinking you could still want me
I'm a mess, I've been a mess for months, I know it's true
I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah
And I know that putting all this liquor in my body
Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me
No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me
Still, I wait for you and I know
It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared of how quiet it will be without you
I hate taking off my own clothes
Getting in my own bed, spinning thoughts about you
It's late and I'm waiting behind
For the drugs to kick in, and erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
Smoking new cigarettes, thinking you could still want me
It's late and I'm waiting behind
For the drugs to kick in, and erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
And I know I'm a mess, thinking you could still want me