All These Engagements

They say it's so much better to have loved and lost
Than to have lived in a bubble never knowing the cost
Of a broken heart like a loaded gun
It scares everyone, everyone, everyone
Everyone tells me the same thing every day
You're wasting your time, just wasting away
There's a hole in your heart, just go fill it with love
But what is love, what is love, what is love, what is
This thing I've been told since 13 years old
Where you feel understood, undeniably good
It's a stain on your sneaker, a hole in your speaker
A feeling apart when you've emptied your heart
She's at the upstairs windowpane
As a young boy cries in the rain
She'll never know the power she wields
As the thunder falls on his ears
And he tells himself, never again
All these engagements and lover's spit
As they grasp at a future and promise it will
Be joyful and fruitful, we're better as two
And I cried too, I cried too, I cried too, I cried
Hoping you'd hear me and see right through
All the endless denial I gave to you
I was childishly hoping you'd pull me through
I want it too, want it too, want it too, want it
To change me and life me explain me and give me
A moment of time less alone in my mind
When I felt so strange you would hold me and say
I'm stranger than you can imagine, it's true
And I'm yours, and I'm yours, and I'm here
And I swear there's nothing to fear
So the young woman lies on the bed
While the young man hears lies in his head
And there's no one there
There's nothing left
To be said
All these engagements and lover's spit
All these engagements and lover's spit
All these engagements and lover's spit
They grasp for it, they beg for it
They smother it and cling to it
All these engagements and lover's spit
All these engagements and lover's spit
All these engagements and lover's spit
They grasp for it, they beg for it
They smother it and cling to it
Love is kind
Love is fair
Love is real
Love is true
I was wrong
I held on
I waited for you
To be whole
To be whole
To be whole
To be whole