The List

Oh I, have a hobby of picking myself apart
Leaving people I love waiting in the dark
And sometimes when I want to cry, I laugh
It's kind of funny
Oh and, this October, I went falling off the edge
All of London must've heard the things I said
Put your hand up if I let you down again
There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing but I do
And it's a pattern that I got
I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk to avoid the situation
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now
Oh I, have got an attic full of damage in my mind
I boxed it up, say "I'll deal with it another night"
And I have a problem looking people in the eye
Isn't that funny?
There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing but I do
And it's a pattern that I got
I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk to avoid the situation
I need to stop letting myself down
I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love, instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
Oh, I'm a master at dancing 'round the point
I know I called you but I hate the sound of my own voice
So can you talk? You know I'm stacking up
Until the night I'm not enough
And you're just someone else I disappoint
I need to stop my excuses and put my feelings in order
Need to look in the mirror and stand a little bit taller
Need to stop getting drunk as a reason to call ya
I need to stop letting myself down
Oh, I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now