It's Already Better Than OK

Yes: yes would be the answer -
hole-heartedly and heart-wrenchingly
and yes would I move through all this wading
and through this loft of emotions
to understand how I feel now -
this process of rationalism and
intellectualising of thought
and remember she said
feelings are facts… okay?
and stop writing and
stop making sense of it all;
you never know anyway and
you never stop using
and that word is…
picture yourself walking through this alone;
where it leaves you is an unknown destination -
I never really had a sense of direction anyway
so ammm what am I saying?
I am saying I believe in love and I’m saying
I believe in solitude, I’m saying
I believe in the newness of self,
of the regeneration of this body and mind -
the regeneration of…
(I believe in pain, also how cathartic
the process is - I believe in sadness
and desolation because
what comes out is the truth)
I’ve been trying to separate my head
and my heart; I’m constantly failing
but I’m failing better and what’s next
and come on show me, and show me,
show me: let me show myself it’s more like…
with it! - this,
this is the visceral part coming out.