Facing the Incurable

Many weep for me
Ongoing sympathy
Extreme anxiety
Overwhelming me
Heal me
Spare me
Save me
Wake me
Alone in denial
Tortured soul
An immense ocean swell
Swallows me
A disturbing diagnosis
Evokes misery
Imprisoned to pain
And suffering
The look upon my mother's face
The tears fall like rain
It tears me to pieces
I want to run so far away
Where can I hide?
How can I escape?
Is it not too late?
Excessive disbelief
Anchored underneath
Facing fears of death
Anger and regret
Another surgery
Seems extreme to me
I'm hanging by a thread
Soon I will be dead
I took a ride along the coast
To try and clear my mind
The waves they whisper to me
I stop the car and stare awhile
Before I step outside
I feel the ocean breeze
The sand at my feet
Life itself is terminal
Swimming beneath it all
Destined to collide
I feel myself so emotional
Waiting for the waves to bury me
Beneath the tide
A sudden surge of pouring rain
Cleanses my mind
Swept up by the tide
Drifting further and further away
I am not alone
All those who have passed on before me
Are here by my side
“Although it hasn’t affected my veins ? yet, there’s a lot of me that doesn’t work quite the same. Before I was diagnosed, I was dedicated to being active. Mountain biking, surfing. That is what filled me up inside and made me happy. Now I spend most of my time traveling back and forth to hospitals, seeing doctors who examine me, and then I go home, where I spend the rest of my time. Alone. I am now a prisoner of a different kind. There is nothing painless about living every moment inside your head.”
My heart goes out to you
I hope that you are healing
No one ever deals
How could you cope?
No more grief
Bed ridden sedation
Slowly I'd slip away
I reversed the curse
The long goodbye
I'm at peace
(x4) I'm at peace...
(x4) Heal me
Spare me
Save me
Wake me
“Although it hasn’t affected my veins ? yet, there’s a lot of me that doesn’t work quite the same. Before I was diagnosed, I was dedicated to being active. Now spend most of my time traveling back and forth to hospitals. I am now a prisoner of a different kind. There is nothing painless about living every moment inside your head.”
“I am now a prisoner of a different kind. There is nothing painless about living every moment inside your head.”