Dialogues

I've been saving up for your soul as long as I can recall
Just needed something to tend 'til the fiery end
But every time I give up my foothold to move toward that light
I get darker inside
And I hope you can hear me . . .
I just wanted to be necessary
It didn't matter which purpose I served
You've been growing into the chains of a future you couldn't claim
Must've shackled your wrist to the chances you missed
'cause everything you wanted just came through and grazed you
And left without leaving a mark
And I hope you can hear me . . .
I just wanted to be necessary
It didn't matter which purpose I served
If we're all meant to be mercenaries
Does it matter which spirit we serve?
But God, I'm still circling through the dialogues I could've had with you
'cause you envied me for my mortality
'til it captured you too
In that cold moment after
My shoulders were shattered
I fell prey to your voice
God, I'm still suffering through the dialogues I didn't have with you
But I envied you for your sanity
Until it fell upon me
I just wanted to be necessary
Didn't matter which purpose I served
If we're all meant to be mercenaries
Does it matter which spirit we serve?
You just needed to be a tributary
Didn't matter which river you served
If we're all meant to be temporary
Does it matter which lessons we learn?