Of Nothing

Here we stand looking beyond the visages of feigned hope.
Outline our fears
A system of apologies for a path that will never be clear
Our eyes set upon definition:
what does it mean to exist?
The spaces that define what we mean noumenal and phenomenal realms (1)
Lost in the gap in between where we justify an existence, self-perpetuated persistence (2) filled with every form of resistance.
And now we stand, firmly planted on a bed of sand, counting the days that we spend turning the pages in a discontinuous mass of lines and phrases (3)

Alpha and Omega,
Beginning to end, we search on without a guide
Defining the shadows that reside in the mind of the Architect (4)

Self-delusions crafting illusions that creates a kaleidoscope of indiscernible forms
This void fills our chests,
we burn out, the unrelenting spark of an idea
The stale taste of sulfur filling our final breath.
Heaving as we actualize our existence (5)
And this corporeal plague of paradoxes boils up on my skin, the tormenting lament of this cauldron of doubt (6).

Footnotes:
(1) Kant believed that there is an unbridgeable gap between what we experience (Phenomena) and the real world that exists outside of our perception (Noumena). This unbridgeable gap opened a whole line of philosophical questioning that ultimately led to an entire reassessment of our ability to know anything about the world.
(2) Nietzsche rejected the notion of purpose being imparted to us by a divine being. Instead, he proposed that it is incumbent upon us to make up and define our own purpose.
(3) Sartre
(4) Plato's forms as interpreted by Augustine.
(5) Koestler argued that the only way that one could truly control their life and define themselves was through suicide.
(6) In the Brother’s Karamazov, Dostoevsky argues that the only way to truly hold to the truth of a world view was to go through what he referred to as the cauldron of doubt. For Dostoevsky, untested and unexamined faith or belief had no real merit.