Watch Me Read You

Watch me read you
The turning pages of an epic
Dissected hallucinogenic
Black coffee addict
Life, ended lies
Cold on that metal tray
Wasting away
I watch him sneer at me from beyond the grave
I hear him call for me
Watch me read you
I get scared when it falls dark
The creeping shadows up my arm
The sneaking scarecrows work their charm
But circumstantial
The way I blink when you get mad
Feel disarmed when you get sad
But turn to run when we fall back
On old behaviors
When the flavour turns from sweet to sour
That's the hour that I seek the heavy hearts
And tie the treats with words of hatred*
Watch it seep through skin like sap through bark
I cower in the dark 'til your return
When will I learn?
We never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
Breath in the smoke from mother's (**?)
Lying in the dirt
So make a promise but then later we can just forget
It's hard to let your breath out
When you're used to holdin' in
She'll go, oh
Got out through the window, oh
It's her, oh
Maybe it's a shadow
You never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
But when you cry the light reflects
And I see you again
The beautiful colours of the people's faces
And the way they sat on top of those men
Watch me read you
Like words ripped right off the page
Another ghost, another day
Of melancholy, UV rays, and heavy eye lids
You just decided not to care
Compressed your fears and cut your hair
Lifted your shirt to find there's nothing there
Now read me
Red wine carpet stain, with curly hair
Crazy eyes, impulsive mouth
She loves the rain but not the dark
You feel insane
The overpass is wet with blood
She turns to you to say
"Hey, we can't exist"
And in that moment, it's just bliss
It's like you missed a thousand years
And as you kiss, it's like you drift
Between here and there
Between real and fake
As I hold my breath
I can't see your face
Watch me read me, read you, read them, read us
Everyone's a burning book
On trust and lust and love
On what we are and what we're made of
We never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
Breath in the smoke from mother's (**?)
Lying in the dirt
So make a promise but then later we can just forget
It's hard to let your breath out
When you're used to holdin' in
She'll go, oh
Got out through the window, oh
It's her, oh
Maybe it's a shadow
You never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
But when you cry the light reflects
And I see you again
So don't just see me, oh surround me
It's getting harder babe to focus on just one thing
It's enigmatic, truly astounding
The way we stand together
But we are still drifting
You are so absent, oh
But you consume me, oh
And when the sun goes down
The night, it wraps around me
You try to stand still, oh
I can't help moving, oh
You're like the moon that draws the tide that rushes through me
We never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
Breath in the smoke from mother's (**?)
Lying in the dirt
So make a promise but then later we can just forget
It's hard to let your breath out
When you're used to holdin' in
She'll go, oh
Got out through the window, oh
It's her, oh
Maybe it's a shadow
You never wanted to be more than just a silhouette
But when you cry the light reflects
And I see you again
I see you again
I watch you read me
The burning pages of my life
Reduced to ash and overnight
I find my body is not mine