Destroyer

This is about Sarah's sister who committed suicide. One of their most underrated/best songs in my opinion.

So underrated. It’s haunting, beautiful and tragic all at once

Yes, this song is about Sarah’s sister taking her own life. But it’s a lot deeper than that. Sarah’s sister, Rebecca, battled with depression for a good portion of her life. Part of her depression was rooted in her struggle with “the inner critic”, the internal voice known for judging & demeaning the self. It’s very common in people who suffer from major depression. The Destroyer is the most harmful of all of the inner critics & does exactly what it’s named after: destroying self-worth, shaming the person, & even convincing them that they don’t deserve to exist. I think Rebecca fought this demon day in & day out, & finally woke up one day & just couldn’t do it anymore. The song outlines that she was finally trying to quiet “ALL of the voices” that were telling her over & over that she wasn’t deserving of having a life, let alone a good life. To quiet the Destroyer, she needed to be “alone” & unfortunately, she thought she could only do that by taking her life. It’s incredibly tragic. But what Sarah did with both her & her sister’s pain, this song, it’s beautiful. And anyone who has struggled with depression, suicidal tendencies, & a harsh inner critic (like myself) can fully relate. It’s one of my favorite Phantogram songs, even though it’s one of the most heartbreaking songs I’ve ever heard.