Unfamiliar

You ask what it's like to be stuck in the middle
You tell me I should know. At least I've gotten this far
Only another six months or so to go
I'm not sure of what I'm waiting for
I just know I'm not there yet
I'm scared of hurting you along the way
But if I don't there will be nothing left
An empty life, a useless shell, a shadow of what used to care
A restless limp, a careful movement, the loving way we used to share
I'm taller now but that's a lie, I wish advice was all you'd left behind
I'm sorry for you every day
I wanna be everything, but I've stopped trying to be anything
I'm not used to this kind of cold
I hate this time of year
I'm sitting on this damp cold fence
Afraid of jumping off and it making sense
In case I think you're right and leave your side
I think we've made a huge mistake .
An empty life, a useless shell, a shadow of what used to care
A restless limp, a careful movement, the loving way we used to share
I'm taller now but that's a lie, I wish advice was all you'd left behind
I'm sorry for you every day
Falling - wasn't the easiest thing to do
Freezing - shaking my body next to you
Changing - I should have known you could follow through
Falling - wasn't the easiest thing to do
Pleasing - I should have pushed right next to you
Crawling - Making my way back to you
And I can't look you in the eye because you know my life's a lie
For 24 months I've walked these same streets twice a day
And I never caught sight of you or heard something you might say
For the last two weeks I've been thinking of you screaming at me and it's making me weak
I need to call you up and tell you that I miss you