Old Friends

Walking outside labyrinthian over cracks along under the trees
I know this town grounded in a compass
Cardinal landed in the dogwood
Keep going over it over and over
My steps, iterate my shame
How come every outcome's such a come down
Late in the afternoon with the shades drawn down
I kept saying I just wanted to see you
Saying whats wrong with that
Needle shaking outlines in a compass
Every outcome's such a comedown
I knew it when I saw it
So I did just what I wanted
So I go through with it
I knew happiness when I saw it
I saw your boyfriend at the Port Authority
Sort of a fucked up place
Well, so I averted my stride on a quick one
He's coming back from going over your place, huh
I feel like we could forget about it
I feel like I could mellow out
I don't feel undone in a big way
There's nothing really bad to be upset about
When I thought I was getting better
I woke up on the ground and
Appointment or a disappointment
Any outcome's such a comedown
As if I needed a reminder
Oh I do only what I want to
So I go through with this
Walking out in the nighttime springtime
Needling my way home
I saw Leah on the bus a few months ago
Saw some old friends at her funeral
My steps keep splitting my grief
through these solipsistic moods
I should call my parents when I think of them
Should tell my friends when I love them
Maybe I should've gone out a bit more
When you guys were still in town
I got too caught up in my own shit
That's how every outcome's such a comedown
I knew it when I saw it
Oh I did just what I wanted
So I go through with this
I knew happiness when I saw it