Ghost

What if you woke up to an empty bed, and a note that said
“I’m never coming home, I can’t live with the person I’ve become”?
Would you even notice I was gone?
Or would would you just carry on staring blankly into spaces that I used to occupy?
I always fucking hated that distance in your eyes
I’m a ghost; I’m a shadow on the wall of a house you don’t go in anymore
And though transparency is nothing new to me
I guess I never thought you’d be the one to leave
So what’s there to say?
I know that “sorry” is what’s expected, but what will that change?
I’m still sleepless in the bed that I have made
The grave, the product of my selfish ways
And I know this would mean everything to someone, but nothing to you
I never meant to be the boy that cried wolf
There was just no other way to get through to you
I mean, how was I expected to tell you the truth?
You couldn’t even look me in the face most days
And it’s taken me this long to work out why
But I, I spent years feeling ashamed
I spent years being afraid of something that wasn’t there in the first place
Did you ever love me?
What if you woke up, and you’d forgotten everything I have said?
Could we be happy again?
If I can learn to live with myself
Could you learn to love me like you said you did?
I know I hate the man I am
But I am who you made me
If I can learn to live with myself
Could you learn to love me like you said you did?
I know I hate the man I am
But I am who you made me