Farther From Home

I lie awake and look at the ceiling and wonder why
I’m so afraid to face all these feelings and want to die
I’m out of place and nothing’s appealing to stay alive
Why try to face it when it’s so easy to say goodbye?
It’s all unfolding
It’s so controlling
It tries to pull me under
Nothing’s going right for me
This tension’s growing
It tries to hold me
Hear me scream
I’m taking over
(With my back to ropes, I’m never letting go)
I’m moving closer
(Everything that I’ve known is feeling farther from home)
I’m never giving in
This world I’m living in is losing color
I’m taking over
(With my back to the ropes, I’m never letting go)
I try to make the changes, it’s so hard to sway my mind
There is no way to make it but to leave these scars behind
Within my thoughts are racing, I’m too far away in time
I drive myself insane, it’s tearing me apart inside
It’s all unfolding
It’s so controlling
It tries to pull me under
Nothing’s going right for me
This tension’s growing
It tries to hold me
Hear me scream
I’m taking over
(With my back to ropes, I’m never letting go)
I’m moving closer
(Everything that I’ve known is feeling farther from home)
I’m never giving in
This world I’m living in is losing color
I’m taking over
(With my back to the ropes, I’m never letting go)
I take a deep breath down inside
I shake and try to breathe
But I hate the way I lived my life
And it seems all the lies that I tried to hide
Remind me of what I left behind
Unwinding thoughts inside my mind
Hear me scream
I’m screaming out loud!
It’s all just weighing on me
(It’s all just weighing on me!)
It’s all just weighing on me
(I’m reaching out, I’m screaming out loud!)
I’m taking over
(With my back to ropes, I’m never letting go)
I’m moving closer
(Everything that I’ve known is feeling farther from home)
I’m never giving in
This world I’m living in is losing color
(Losing color!)
I’m taking over
(With my back to the ropes, I’m never letting go)
I’m never letting go
With my back to the ropes
I’m never letting go