Song About Why I Suck

Before if I fucked up anything I only hurt me,
I never hurt anyone but now there are real people my actions affect and I cannot stand it,
I cannot handle it.
I smoke too much weed, watch too much TV, I always run out of cigarettes,
I lie about everything.
This used to be me but now it's feeling stale and friendly.
And I hate what I've become but I've never been so proud of what I've achieved.
And I steal from my friends, this is how I will tell them,
But sometimes I'm broke and when I am I I'll do anything.
And it's no excuse cause none of us have a thing,
But you are all honest I self-aggrandise my own bullshit.
Borrow money for food and I spend it on booze,
Eat bread from the dumpster and use anything I can use,
To block out my thoughts, quiet my brain,
I still jump when the pain comes.
And I just want my parents to think that I'm clever,
And excuse my lifestyle but my lifestyle has become an excuse.
Formed out of habit.
And I just want my friends to know that I'll never fuck them around again,
Cause people are everything.
And I sing these songs to sink up with the stragglers,
And I sing these songs because nothing else matters,
And I sing these songs out of fury and fear,
And I sing these songs cause without them,
I wouldn't be here,
With you.