Crushing Petals

I was wishing for roses
I was praying for petals
Surrounding something special
Along the surface of the water
But nothing ever comes
No, no one ever comes
Into the years of isolation
I’ve been completely alone
In some subtle way, I’m begging for the day when that “something” is no longer missing
These are my dreams unfulfilled:
This expression of love I’ve kept to myself
Is useless and faded, I’ve given it up
I have never loved
There are times when I wish I could confide in someone
Or something
But somehow
I can’t reach that place
Here I am again, searching for direction I can’t find in myself
When I look to the world
For some kind of connection
All my faith just drains away
I remember feeling most alive when she kissed me and I said goodbye
Those were times when I felt that I could never escape
I was holding on to what was safe, despite the need to separate
Sometimes bonds just won’t break
But I walked away from that familiar face
I knew that lonely times would await
I walked away because I never found my place
And I’m still searching
Still dreaming
Of the beautiful ends
But they’re nowhere to be seen
They are always out of reach
I’ve chased
This dream,
Eager but exhausted,
Through so many sleepless nights
The longing never stops
Waiting for something great, for more than life can give
Waiting for something great, for more than life can give
Waiting for something great, for more than life can give