I Don't Want To Lie Here Anymore

It was a Saturday in my mother’s room,
When I wrote this to confess to you
I’ve been thinking a lot about myself
And this may seem like a bit too much, but I think it will help
Lately, things have been getting rough
I don’t know where to go with the way that I feel
If I told you once, I guess that wasn’t enough
I’m still faced with the same old flaws
Hoping one day to resolve them all
There will be no trace of me to follow
There will be no trace of me at all
I move through life like a ghost through a field of fallen snow
You’ll find no trace of me at all
So where do you go when you’re on your own?
When the very thing that makes you who you are lends to an emptiness you can not ignore?
Because the people that surround me now
All lost their faith in happiness
We’re all losing ourselves to this bitterness
When nothing ever seems to change
When no one ever comes your way
When home is just a place to stay
You’ll lose yourself to the same old ways
I’m tired now, I must admit
It takes a lot to live with this
But I promise you I will never quit
What am I to do
With all of this time?
All those details I remember weigh me down as I close my eyes
Even in my dreams, there is no place to rest
Every moment carried over
Each day like the rest