Trying

I can't get out
Invisible handcuffs locked on me
Been praying for period all week
And relief that I just can't see
I question everything
My focus, my figure, my sexuality
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
I can't keep it together
I've been better, I've been
Thinkin' about it every night
I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying, why am I
I can't get out
There's no flawless education
Just a stupid degree
And the feeling of growing so far from myself I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach
So I brush it off 'cause I want it bad
And there's no dusting up when you want like that
Here's a ship, there's the wreck
Better keep yourself in check
'Cause all these loaded questions
Gonna eat you alive
I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying, why am I
If it counts for anything
I didn't want to
I'm just looking for clarity
To help me get through
If you're set in your ways
What can I do?
Ease up so that I can break it down for you
Can't feed a beast you
Leave unleashed
It'll come right back to you
I'm trying
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying, why am I