Destruction Of Myself

I close my eyes and make believe I’m anywhere but here
It grows inside and makes me see I’m nowhere even near
Although I try, there’s no rewind, I cannot disappear
I think it’s time that I realize it’s me inside that mirror
‘Cause everything I do reflects on me
And every breath of truth affects me deep
These scars are from the wounds I’ve left on me
Only I fit in the shoes that get the best of me
Nothings ever new made a mess of me
It’s all I ever do, it’s oppressing me
I’m hiding from the truth to the best degree
But it’s never out of view, it’s my destiny
Brought down and beat down
The destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it’s done
And I’m the one who fell, who fell
It’s my own hand that made fall, there’s no one else to blame
I try to stand outside these walls and wish I felt the pain
I try to cry but can’t because I’ve dealt with this for days
I’m tired of the man I am, after all, I’m selfish in my ways
There’s nothing you can do to save me now
It’s something that I choose and it weighs me down
It’s coming and ensues to play me now
Can’t run from what I grew, it’s made me how
I look to all of you afraid, beat down
Tattered and abused, it remains renowned
It’s nothing, no news how it’s made me drown
There’s nothing left to lose, no escaping now
Brought down and beat down
The destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it’s done
And I’m the one who fell
And I’m still brought down and beat down
The destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it’s done
And I’m the one who fell, who fell
The destruction of myself
Stems from no one’s actions but my own
Everything I do with every breath I breathe, it’s a mistake
Every time I try, every time I try to overcome, I fail
Failure to the fullest
Everything I do is foolish
Careless and clueless
I try to stop but still I do this
Reckless, I choose this
These self-inflicted scars and bruises
Helpless and ruined
Left for dead and rendered useless
Brought down and beat down
The destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it’s done
And I’m the one who fell
Brought down and beat down
The destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it’s done
And I’m the one who fell, who fell