If I Came Back to You

I am not proud
where I am
always remember
how it was left
and how it felt
just two
together by chance
If we lost a second
I see it again
and how it couldn’t be
that it never seemed to happen
and all my pain
that dragged on
as I thought of you
If I never hoped with every breath
and ran to you
when you said you’d be there
whenever I need
if I had no faith
and lost words I meant
then I know it’d be a cursed me
the one I can only be
when I am in a black sleep
where nightmares go on
and never cease their place in me
and demons haunt me
that tear up my skin
and I bleed and I scream
in my dreams to be burning
to death through reality
I saw how we walk away
even though when we turn
we really know when we really know
we don’t want to go
and your hearts gone but you think it can go on
no matter what you’ve lost
and I've seen the pain that doesn’t have to be
and those who’ve gone with no heart to leave
it made me think and hold myself to believe
that it would never be be
but once again I’m screaming that I’m gone
and hating all that”s done
and I would die for a second
a second to see it through
I swear I have no pride
I don’t care how much I will cry
I miss you so much
I don’t want to speak
I don’t want you to see these teary eyes
I never wanted to say goodbye
I never could say goodbye
if I came back to you