Ballad of Self Indulgence

[Mic check, mic check
'You turn everything up just a bit?
Yeah]
Well here's a secret about me
I'm a freak, don't know where to be
Turn my cheek and then I flee
My brain's so weak and on it's last knee
Born to quit and down to fall
I might not have hit but then that's all
I'm not strong to make the long haul
I'd rather be wrong than guess at all
The world's a mess and I care less
All I really need is your caress
I got a pain in my chest from smoking cigarettes
After sex I get the H-test
I don't really care what is the result
I just turned twenty now why am I an adult?
All your problems are all my fault
So I got a tattoo and joined my own cult
You say hi, I say right
You say why and I'll say shy
Point in the direction of that nice guy
Cause I'm not good for you and soon I gotta die
I'll see you there over where
The other side where we don't care
And it will be just you and me
And we'll be happy cause they'll set us free
What's my reason for acting this way?
I don't know, I wish I could say
It's a nice bright sunny day
I really do wanna come out and play
Too confused, I got to lose
Just don't know which bad life to choose
Here I win and there I lose
Head of sin and all bad news
A paranoid life in void
Spoiled brat, ugly rat
Pop the pills, get your thrills
Feel like shit and say that's it
Next day back, more than that
What's the point, just smoke a joint
Feel like kings, start to sing
Loving the sun and the life it brings
Well my father put me under a hex
Got a nice self-eating Messiah complex
Gonna rule the world, yeah I thought you knew
Reading the bible, yeah I'm on page two
Gonna write a book and direct a flick
Normal people just make me sick
I just need time, waiting for a sign
God talks to me man I ain't lying
Doing fine, getting well
Feel like threat yeah I'm in hell
I need you to grab and take me to have me
I just want you and me to be happy
But I know I'm so lame
The way you see right through my game
But I still, I just won't admit
Even though I feel like shit
Maybe I like the way I feel
It's not fun but at least it's real
Screaming loud, reaching out
I lost you out in the crowd
I'll see you there over where
The other side where we don't care
And it will be just you and me
And we'll be happy cause they'll set us free
I'll see you there over where
The other side where we don't care
And it will be just you and me
And we're dead as free cause we'll be happy yeah yeah