Floorboards

And this is not the way that I
Had pictured this would go,
Your hands are weak
I thought that they'd be strong,
Your mouth tastes like the way I thought it'd taste
Like smoke,
And your hair is really long
I like it really long
So I can lie to both my mom and dad
Who say that I am younger than I am
And the doctors say I'm fine
And I will be a mom in nine whole months
I'll never be a mom
I'll never be that strong
I'll always be this weak
At least I think I'll be
She says I kicked and cried and screamed
Until I couldn't breathe
I threw myself down stairs like twice a week
I think I bled until it was all gone
He said thank me when your older,
And I'll write all of these songs for you.
You can bury me in pieces
Underneath the floorboards in your room
And the story just gets darker
Screaming down hallways you always do
Saying Jesus please forgive me
But I need this body more than you
And I never said that did was easier than done
By dawn my ribs were spilling out my back
My spine, my spine is coming out my mouth and I can not breathe
And I will break, and break, and break, and break and break again
I blew myself back up with all my friends
I lost myself right there in my room writing songs like these
She says I kicked and cried and screamed
Until I couldn't breathe
I threw myself down stairs like twice a week
I think I bled until it was all gone
He said thank me when your older,
And I'll write all of these songs for you.
You can bury me in pieces
Underneath the floorboards in your room
And the story just gets darker
Screaming down hallways you always do
Saying Jesus please forgive me
But I need this body more than you
And it's not all gone