Shoppers Beef

"You cannot defeat the darkness, you can only be the light"
Fuck that
At the core of night
I couldn't imagine anything I'd like less
Than to be the light
And in this, I mean
Literal darkness
Literal light
And literal night
Why would I want to?
I liked you
Like I like the dark
In it I feel my body
In a different way
Because like when my body
Was with yours
In the dark,
My body doesn't end at my fingertips
Instead bleeding out into a space
I can't calculate the mass of
But that I know is massive
I am a giant in these spaces
I am more than a giant
I am limitless
We are limitless
Darkness is an infinite container
I am a gas seeking to fill its volume
Or dissipate to harmlessness within it
Let myself be absorbed into something
That I am also an agent of
Until it and I are both malleable
Next darkness is the backseat
Of my dead best friend's sister's car
And every potentially stubbed toe
Or missed step on the staircase
Are the bobbing headlights
That haunt your parents' neighborhood
Coming into focus in the fog
Slowly bounding towards us
Like specters
While we lay silently in cover
Save for the percussion of our hearts
And the exuberance of our lungs
And every soft carpet fiber
Every safely navigated hallway
Taking me deeping into dark
Is your charged touch
Sending jolts of current
Waltzing through my muscles
Is your breathy way of saying my name
After the hallway I stumble to my bed
Isn't this exciting?
Feeling out into a comfortable unknown
I can float out into the dark
Until I've reached land again
If there's land to be had
If there isn't, that's fine
I feel safer now floating out
Into the precipice
I liked you like I like the dark
Why would I aim to defeat it?