What You Wanted

You said: "I know that i want it and I live like I love it, but when I'm sad, that changes.
When I want some peace or truth I'm constantly assailed, assaillllied"
"ADN I'm wanting wanting waiting waiting wanting: love, deferred"—
but I won't stay: "no."
You never say just what you wanted when you want it.
And I never talked you when I was sore about it.
Ohhhh I don't wanna wait until the dawn and tell myself I'll learn by morning.
But I never listened to myself and never said one word about it.
Change has come and changed just how I look upon myself–
Ya you could have lived happily & gone to somewhere else, someone else, somewhere else.
But who would stand for me if, if you weren't standing there?
Say "no" say "It won't ever be, won't ever be that way"!
But talking how it [could be] different's more than words it's more like willing for the time to steal away.
Now I see your face in everything and make a song, make this song sing it far away.
You never say just what you wanted when you want it.
And I never talked you when I was sore about it.
Ohhhh I don't wanna wait until the dawn and tell myself I'll learn by morning.
And I never listened to myself and never said one word about it.
I said "If I know that I want it, I know that as soon as I've got, It'll change: I'll hate it."
Every time I see some proof, I've caught, I want the wonder back, I want the chase, I want that lack!
And I know it's lame, it's basic, childish, self-obsessed —ya I know it's so absurd!
But when I love it, I love it, all I want is that love anchored but I won't say no.
You can never say just what you want without it wandering.