Self Esteem

I wrote him off for the tenth time today,
And practiced all the things I would say,
But he came over, I lost my nerve
I took him home and made him dessert.
Now I know I'm being used,
That's okay ‘cause I can deal with abuse,
I know he's playing with me,
That's okay cause I've got no self-esteem.
We make plans to go out at night,
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light,
All this rejection's got me so low,
If he keeps it up I just might tell him so.
When he's saying, ah that he wants only me,
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends.
When he's saying, ah that I'm like a disease,
Then I wonder how much more I can stand,
Well I guess I should stick up for myself,
But I really think it's better this way,
The more you suffer,
The more it shows you really care, right?
Now I'll relate this a little bit,
It happens more than I'd like to admit,
Late at night he knocks on my door,
Drunk again and looking to score,
Now I know I should say no,
But that's kind of hard when he's ready to go,
I may be dumb, but boy, can I scream!
I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem.
When he's saying, ah that he wants only me,
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends.
When he's saying, ah that I'm like a disease,
Then I wonder how much more I can stand,
Well I guess I should stick up for myself,
But I really think it's better this way,
The more you suffer,
The more it shows you really care, right?