Chaos Inside

darkness... silence - it‘s so sombre here...
no matter where or who i am
captived... condemned... to live in this shell
in my own personal hell
retreated... occlusive - what has brought me there
and, damn...how can i return?
anguish... confusedness - am i daft in the head?
am i here or am i dead?
...am i dead?
slightly it drives me insane... it makes me feeling so lame
darkness... silence - creeping through my soul
why am i like what i am?
captived and condemned to live in this place
of blankness, hate and pungent ache
forgotten... despised - shut out of this life
wihtout a future anymore
chaos... panic - the apathy inside
has merged and grown to endless fear
i rot down in madness
no cure‘s there to expect
no future to defeate
without the past - i can‘t forget
it slowly drives me insane and every day it‘s the same
it strangles all my feelings...
of pleasure, teariness and shame
and i hold you to me tight
turn your days into night
there is no place you can hide
already lost is this fight
i lacerate your mind
paint your world black and white
one day i‘ll blow off your light
i‘m your chaos inside