Pretend 2

I used to think that I would never get over you.
Turns out I'm wrong 'cause I don't care who you're talking to.
I've spent the last seven months thinking I'm doing okay.
For the most part I am and that's all I can say.
I don't know if I'm just lonely, or maybe it's who I am.
It's like everyone sees right through me and no one gives a damn.
I don't want to say I miss you 'cause I'm pretty sure I don't.
I miss the feeling that you gave me, the feeling I'm not alone.
I miss the safety when I wake up in the middle of the night.
I miss holding on to someone and they say "Erik, it's alright."
I wish I knew what it's like to feel alive.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay. Okay!
I used to think that I would never get over you.
Maybe not yet, but it's something I'm getting through.
You know I didn't want to but I had to say goodbye.
I just couldn't fucking take it, living my life trapped in a lie.
I really wish I'd wake up and change my life for good.
I know I'll never make it but I really wish I could.
I wish I knew what it's like to feel alive.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay. Okay!
Can you put me back together even though you broke my heart?
Can't I just pretend you love me? 'Cause I can't stand our time apart.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay.
I used to think that I would never get over you.
I guess I was right 'cause we're talking like we used to.