I Don't Wanna Be an Asshole Anymore

"somewhere lost inside the ???????????"

.... the man that I'm not.

Lines I'm not sure about:

• Another night, I devour the sun
• Usual vital, missing spite
• somewhere lost inside the ???????????

Sounds to me like someone came to their senses, but it's probably too late. You know, that guy that thinks the world revolves around him and what he wants to do at all times, the shallow "Mr. Unavailable" type...available to everyone except the person that loves him. He has time to be out drinking with everyone else but no time for his girl. She probably left and this song is his apology. The thing is, it's probably just lies and he'll never change.

I am going out on limb and say that this line:

• And I’ve been wandering and I live through the garden of your heart ache

is actually this: "and I've been wandering nightly through the garden of your heart ache"

This song has a great, almost hidden really positive meaning to it. Especially if you believe the video and lyrics tell the same story.

The meaning is that people can always change, always better themselves.

It seems bleak at first but it's quite positive.

The mystery line (the one that said "using vital missing spite" which makes absolutely no sense) is apparently "years of idleness and spite". Great line!

Correct lyrics from the liner notes of the album:

Yeah! Last Friday night I wasn't me I was a still life trapped in eternity I was the focal point of a focus out of ink

And I’ve been wandering nightly through the garden of your heart ache Always making a mess always stumbling out the door But I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore

Woah baby, baby I’ll be good to you I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore Woah baby, baby, I’ll be good to you Baby, baby, I’ll be good to you

Another night, I devoured the sun And plunged myself into the depths of oblivion Yeah somewhere along the way I found why It feels damn good just to bleed sometimes But all I ever wanted was to make things right The years of idleness and spite Have pushed my emotions off a bridge After taking them hostage with a shotgun Now they’re somewhere treading water, Somewhere lost inside the the man that I'm not But I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore

Woah baby, baby I’ll be good to you I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore Woah baby, baby, I’ll be good to you I’ll be good to you I’ll be good, I’ll be good, I’ll be good

I won’t lie no more about where I’ve been And I won’t pry no more over the people that you’re hanging with Because you’re the only lover that I've ever missed, That I’ve been hopelessly in love with Look at this tangle of thorns I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore Yeah, I don’t wanna be an asshole anymore Oh no, no, no