Four Years

All my friends have gone away
Sailing vessels leaving the bay
For the best four years and the promise of pay
But they don't even know what they're chasing
Greater men have tried and failed
And all this time I thought that I'd stay
As a ghost who would haunt this mountain
And all this time I thought that I'd stay
Alive in the ground and digging out my coffin
Time is short on courts and pavement
We knew we had to leave
But did I make the most of everyday
And did I give to not receive
Are there any better words to express the full extent of my grief?
It hits home, It hits home
When you're not home, When you're not home
There's no space to grow
When you're not home (and all this time not much to show)
And all this time I thought that I'd stay
As a ghost who would haunt this mountain
And maybe I should hold my tongue
And do my best to live with the stress that's mounting
I never thought, I never thought
A bond was something we lacked
I gotta find another way to keep myself intact
I understand we all went away so we could have the stories to share when we're back
Try to pass the same old shit to get ahead and start your paper stack
I never thought, I never thought
A bond was something we lacked
I guess some of us just needed a change to heal the bones we cracked
It takes four years
Away from your friends
To make you all forget
How much time you've spent