Strife

This song is about anxiety and fear making it hard to live a normal life and communicate.

"My anxiety's clawing Out from deep within me It burns within as my throat begins to cauterize" -This is referring to the anxiety attack beginning as it "cauterizes" his throat making it difficult to speak

"This negativity's leeching Any shred of composure Rationale has decayed and left me bound in madness" -The negative thoughts are making it difficult to stay calm, eventually leading him to completely breakdown and lose all rationale

"I reach for calm I starve for a balance unknown This burden tortures me deep in my soul" -He wants to calm down, and needs to find balance in his life. His inability to do so causes him great suffering.

"I've found that strife won't make the bleeding stop Nor will it take away the pain I feel like this search is all in vain And I struggle to find my way" -He has found that getting angry won't help the situation any, and that his attempts to calm down and fix the situation are useless, as he struggles to make it through.

"How I yearn for the silence For an end to the voices The calamity grows and the deafness leads to disarray" -He wants peace at last and for the voices in his head to go away. The disaster gets worse and leads to further chaos.

"Guilt buries me alive In a coffin criticized I shouldered the blame and dug this hole for me to lay in" -The guilt of getting angry sets in and he feels buried by the criticism he receives. He accepts for responsibility for what he has done and then hides away.