My First Breath

[MY FIRST STEP]
How could I be so blind for all these years?
I never took the time to see
Been looking everywhere for answers and for explanations,
but they’ve been right in front of me
You told me all the things that I should be
I’ve seen that end and now I’m done
‘Cause I can’t keep on dragging all your expectations of me
It’s time to put them down and run
[CHORUS] Taking my first step, waiting just to see
if everything I used to know is letting go of me
Part of me still wants to hide from you
Some things I don’t want you to know
Can you see past all of my failed attempts to fight this emptiness?
‘Cause I’ve got nowhere else to go
[CHORUS x2]
[WASH AWAY]
Can it wash away into the sea?
Will I suffocate or be free?
If I take this step, what will it mean?
Can a filthy rag be made clean?
I've got to hope that this is real,
that I can change the way I feel
For this to work, I must believe
that a filthy rag can be clean
Can it wash away into the sea?
Will I suffocate or be free?
If I take this step, what will it mean?
Can a filthy rag be made clean?
[MY FIRST BREATH]
I feel a comfort that I’ve never known
Weight is lifting, finally free
I know these steps I’ve taken led me to this place
A place where I can breathe
Taking my first breath, longing just to be
Someone that I’ve never been: known, fulfilled, and free
Taking my first breath, a moment to begin
Letting go of who I was, my chance to start again