Mountains of Nothing

I'm trying to learn to sleep again
Morphine visions flashing in my head
To laugh and to weep again
Free myself from fear and from regret
I'm trying to see again
I'm sure there's more to life than black and white
To share and believe again
Relax, detach, go floating with the tide
I only watch when there is nothing to see
I only listen when there's nothing to hear
I only speak when there is nothing to say
I cry for help when there's nobody near
Mountains of nothing I'm trying to surmount
Living somebody elses's thoughts
Wishing I could dream of sheep
And make my home in this emptiness
I'm trying to learn to dream again
Unlock that heavy door see what's inside
To love and to feel again
Stop consuming myself, stop to hide
Moved by the beat and bass of silent alarms
I get confused as I wander about
Out on the street when it's too cold to feel warm
I dance in tune with the lost and the proud
Fountains of passion I want to conjure up
But my wells are forever dry
Walking on barren grounds
No clouds caress the skies tonight
I'm dissolving, I'm shedding
Transcendent, translucent
I'm a multiple entity
It's a dream in a dream in a dream in a dream
I observe, I don't feel, it's not me
It's the melancholy of a ski-resort in summer
Never the right time nor the place to be
My rooms are fitted, and I'm waiting to welcome her
But the one I loved has long moved out of me...