Guarded

I had it all figured out.
I wouldn’t miss a thing.
I hope you’re listening now.
I hope you hear me.
I’m not sure what to say,
And I don’t know how to respond.
Tell me what to do if I can’t be good enough.
I can’t believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away.
There’s nothing for me here anymore,
And no reason I should stay.
Break my heart and make it fast
'Cause it’s all already lost.
Please say something, just not that,
‘Cause I cant feel anything at all.
I can’t believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away.
There’s nothing for me here anymore,
And no reason I should stay.
Tell me something I don’t know,
Or I hope I just forgot.
And I hope he makes you laugh like I never could,
And that’s he’s everything I’m not.
And I just want the truth.
Is it really all that hard?
And you won’t get to watch when I fall all apart.
I can’t believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away.
There’s nothing for me here anymore,
And no reason I should stay.
Tell me a lie that I’ll believe,
And then maybe I’ll forget.
And I can’t be everything you need,
But I meant everything I said.
I can’t believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away.