Do you cry, are you scared?
I cried most 5 minutes to go the when you asked me what I dream about.
If you think I’m a fighter, than I’m a fighter, but I hate to fight. But pushing me and drive me against my principles, I will do it. I believe in no majesty of boss who wants to, to abuse the authority, but I don’t want to be a boss. I hate to be a boss I tried a long time to, maybe once a week a cried. I cried like a baby. Yeah it’s a worse force for me and I suppose that I cried the most because of misunderstanding. This is why I cry in the end.
You seem to be very lonesome.
Oh, yeah, sure.
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Probably the most sad Doseone's lyrics set ever.
Let's make the point of the situation: The 13&God's self titled is a very dark and eerie album, scattered with sad lyrics about Drucker not wanting to accept himself as an autistic and queer man and fearing the consequences about admitting it.
But here we reach the bottom of the sadness: In this track which is a field recording of a walk in a city (here's where the title comes from) with a very garbled Doseone's speech splain above it.
"If you think I’m a fighter, than I’m a fighter, but I hate to fight. But pushing me and drive me against my principles, I will do it": This is what about people think of him, there are people that truly love him for what he creates, but he is afraid, he "hates to fight" (i.e. making art just for his fun's sake), since he simply can't. He is afraid of what other people can think if they discover that he is queer or autistic.
"I believe in no majesty of boss who wants to, to abuse the authority, but I don’t want to be a boss. I hate to be a boss I tried a long time to, maybe once a week a cried. I cried like a baby.": Drucker admits that he is afraid if even a bigger audience knows about his problems, he is scared of what the other people can think about him. He doesn't want to be known as a "boss" (a way that really good rappers are called) since he is not up to par with them.
Drucker closes his monologue, and the entire album with the phrase: "You seem to be very lonesome. Oh yeah, sure": In this whole album Drucker was trying to understand himself and trying to come to terms with his sexuality and accept himself as an autistic man, however, he didn’t make it and thus finds himself back at the starting point, feeling very lonesome, and sad.
A field recording of a baby crying is added at the end to keep the constant theme of impotence that is scattered trough this album.